This is Tuesday. Well. Kinda.Wednesday Rewind moves to Thursday.

So, it’s been a rough couple of days chez moi.  Like a huge, bloody battle is going on inside my skull. It makes for some interesting daytime activities.

(I spent about an hour yesterday looking at the patterns in my couch and trying to decide what, if any, type of fish it looks like. Okay. It may have been more then an hour)


(Though orange and plaidish patterned- this couch/hideabed is sooo comfy. Also its where I have been sleeping since my surgery in December. )

But that’s what sometimes happens when your brain has a chemical imbalance.  No matter how on track I am with meds, etc – I have times where I can’t deal. It makes life interesting to say the least.

Lately I have been dealing with symptoms of mania.

Mainly these:
extremely irritable
Sleeping very little, but feeling extremely energetic
Talking so rapidly that others can’t keep up
Racing thoughts; jumping quickly from one idea to the next
Highly distractible, unable to concentrate
Impaired judgment and impulsiveness
(Others that you dont need to know)

These are the main issues that are plaguing me right now.

I cant even play a game properly. I get bored/distracted after about 10-15 minutes and jump up to do something else.

I’ve read 5 books in the last 4 days. I’ve baked at 10pm. I’ve cleaned and vacuumed the livingroom, then within minutes it was messy again because I had brought out colouring books/crafts.

My leg doesn’t stop shaking. I barely sleep – and because it has been a few days…. I’m starting to get really irritable. 

There is an upside though. I’m not depressed. Lol.

Anyways- I better go because I’m starving to death, I want to watch Dr.Who and crochet something.

Btw. Did you know llamas do it laying down? True story.


Monday: Game Review.. kinda

Hey everyone!

I had an entire post all written up on my phone. It was all about Battlefield four.

It was a good write up.

Unfortunately- I am a little bit manic right now. This means that in the middle of the last paragraph. .. I put the phone down to do something else.

I closed the program, and for some reason it didn’t save any partial drafts. No idea why.

So. Let me say this as a recap (I’ll fix it tomorrow):

Game is good. Harder then BLOPS2 control wise. Conquest is my favourite multiplayer mode.

There were a lot of issues with launch. Crashing. Freezing.  Corruption of save files. So many bugs that didnt have to be there.

Even with the latest update I am still finding that my saves are getting corrupted after certain maps on multiplayer. So yes, I am done with single player, for now.  There are only so many times I am willing to restart my progress due to a glitch.

Though… why does no one talk?!? I have only managed to find one squad where everyone talked. One. Wtf people. Communication makes the game more fun!

Does anyone have a raptor account? Because I am the only one on my list, so I’m a total bad ass. Elite at everything.

Also? Add me to Xbox. Tell me where you are from (my blog) and we can kill things together!  My gamer tag is: Remittingdust09 look me up!

(Edited for spelling)

It’s Saturday Bitches!

Sup everyone!

It is Saturday! The day when all you normal folk have a weekend. (Every day is like a weekend for me, so I’ve got no complaints here).

There were two things that I was going to talk about/post about. Unfortunately I literally just forgot about one of them.

So anyways… here is a poem I wrote. Probably quite a while ago now. I found it while I was searching for old resumes. There isn’t much to it… but every once in a while… it just… feels right.


the trees were always green
the flowers always bloomed
the children always played

the sun always shone
the table always had food
the magick always stayed

the fridge always had food
the world was always right
the laughter always flowed

But that all ends
nothing stays the same
the joy leaches away

you grow up

(Yes – I know it is kinda depressing. I was depressed when I wrote it okay? Sheesh)



Friday’s are Pimpin’

Hello Everyone!

It’s Friday, Friday. Gotta get down on Friday!

Isn’t that a lovely earworm? If you don’t know what I am talking about, here. You’re welcome. 

Not that I am pimping that song. It just happened to pop into my head, so I decided to share the horror with everyone.

Anyways – Today I want to link to an amazing TED TALK with a lady who invented a video game to help deal with her depression.




Wednesday REWIND! (On a Thursday) : Bioshock on Xbox 360

Hey everyone!

How are y’all doing? I am doing okay. Thanks for asking.

Yesterday was supposed to be a Wednesday Rewind – but I had a bad headache for most of the day – so I slept. Due to this fact, I have decided to do yesterday’s review, today. YAY!

Today I am going to review Bioshock for the Xbox 360 by 2K.

Game:  Bioshock
Developers: 2K
Released: Xbox 360 and Microsoft Games for Windows – August 2007
Genre:  First Person Shooter

Characters available:



This. Game. I hadn’t played the first Bioshock until recently. I had been a fan of the artwork, and the concept for a while – and had only played Bioshock 2. So I thought – well… I know what Bioshock is all about… I will probably only causally play this while my leg heals after surgery.  Was I ever wrong. 

Bioshock has all the design elements I love in this kind of single player game. Colours. Lines. Detail. Story. Variation of outcomes. I was super impressed with the game overall. Using plot lines, NPCs, and events that are based directly on your decisions – I felt like I had my own, completely unique game. Everything about this game gets me excited.

Set in the 60’s – Rapture is an underground “paradise” created by Andrew Ryan. A man who figured that the world was full of unsavory people (Russians, Germans, CIA, etc) – so he had this underwater Utopia built. Which is a really cool idea, and is something that I am sure would appeal to a bucket-ton of people. Unfortunately the city has become over-run by “Splicers” – people who have taken the gene-altering drug ADAM – who are all crazed out and addicted. They are the main re-occuring enemy, with different variations of the same. Each type of Splicer having a specific type of ability, weakness, and area they are found in. Splicers, along with Big-Daddy’s, Little Sisters, and Bosses – fill each part of the world.

The intro has you seeing all these different parts of the environment, as you are propelled around the outside of rapture in a sub. The visuals are totally awesome. You get to experience the whole “map”, and get a pretty clear picture of what it once was. I was stoked.

The game is led by interaction via instructions from a CB radio. Atlas – the main character that Jack hears from – sends you on various tasks and through various scripted events. From one end of Rapture to the other, he has Jack finding information, and killing over powered Splicers/Bosses. Each aspect of the game has a feel of player control. Will you be good, or will you be evil? Will you hack and steal, or will you pay for everything. What genetic modifications will you use the most? Will you harvest the Little Sisters, or save them? Every choice – gives you a different outcome. (I have only played through once as of yet. Being a saviour of Little Sisters, collector of data, and a master hacker – I would still like to play the game by harvesting all the Little Sisters and see how that changes the story). While completing set tasks – you still get to choose your own adventure.

There are so many things to do and see within the game. I became totally immersed and addicted. I played for hours on end, days in a row. And I never became sick of the game. Not once did I think to myself  “Dammit not again” in regards to fighting any splicers, interacting with any environment, or defeating any boss. There are little things you can find … graffiti, newspapers, kid toys, and places that look as if the people just stepped out for a moment. Everywhere I looked was something new. Also: I was completely not even close to suspecting the ending. Not even close.

I was recently described as a “content devourer” style of gamer. Meaning – I like to visit every part of the map. Collect every item. Listen to and read all the back story. Complete every side mission. Which is true. I do ALL THE THINGS. (I basically blame this on Diablo, and Diablo 2. Going down every hallway so that you can make sure you find/kill everything you need to. I even have a system of always staying left. Hugging the left wall, taking left turns first… until I return to the beginning of the room/area having fully explored everything.) What does this mean for me? It means that while playing Bioshock I was in heaven. So much to do and see!

Overall – I would say this game – everything about it – has turned into one of my all time favourite games to play. I even plan on replaying it again soon to see about other outcomes. So good job 2K. Good job indeed.

Scores out of 10 for each category:

Musical Score :9/10 I tend to turn the main music down if it is too repetitive. This was not. Lots of variations, you can hear the Splicers talking, radio communications/diaries – always something new to listen to and appreciate. (Though – I swear I heard “Welcome to the Circus of Value” in my dreams)

Graphics -10/10 I can’t give it any less. It incorporates a whole bunch of my favourite graphic features in games. I was not disappointed once.

Gore – 6/10 There is a nice, safe amount of gore. You can kill people, see their blood, throw their bodies around using telekinesis, blow them up, set them on fire, electrocute them… so lots of fun stuff, with nothing that made me want to gag. 🙂

Story – 10/10 The story was epic. I was never once bored. Even knowing a basic story spoiler from playing some Bioshock 2 – I was in no way disappointed. So engrossing and engaging. Loved it.

Stigmas– You could say there is a stigma that all addicts are out to kill you, and steal your genetic information… but I feel that the search for ADAM, and the steampunk nature of the whole game, made this easy to overlook.

Anxiety – 3/10 There isn’t much to become anxious about… but I do tend to freak out a little if I start to get low on health while fighting something, or when I accidental trip an alarm while hacking, and don’t have even enough money to turn the bots off. Pretty specific to me issues.

So. Overall I give this game a 9.5/10. So awesome. The story, colours, character development, level design… everything about it rocked my socks. Despite being rated M (had killing, and I believe it had swearing), this is a game I could easily see someone younger playing. I would recommend this game to any and everyone.



Tuesday: Life Review

Hey everyone!  I’m back!

Its been a freaking crazy month and a bit, non?

Short recap: Trip, Home, Surgery, Life, Surgery Complications,  Life, Today 🙂

I am going to try and get back on top of the blogging thing. I seem to be out of whatever funk I was in. I hope.

I think I will tell more about my trip on Thursdays.  Kinda break it up a bit.

But yeah, anyways…

I think I mentioned I had surgery the beginning of December.  I had hardware taken out of my leg from a previous surgery (after I broke it in April). While only a day surgery – it was still interesting. 

My leg? Almost immediately felt so much better then when the plate was in… yet it still hurt like a mofo from the surgery. ..if that makes any sense.

Things went good though.  I was allowed to put weight on it right away. Which of course ment I probably over did it – and then over babied it. It is what I do.

Things were going great. Stitches came out,  I was allowed to shower… everything was fantastic!

Unfortunately there was an infection under where one of the stitches was (were? Had been? That sounds better)

I was running my finger down one of the steristrips because it was starting to pull off. Well, my finger went right into the incision.  I touched bone.

After about 20min of gagging and crying, I drove myself to the hospital. Where they cleaned me up, gave me massive antibiotics,  and told me to book with my surgeon.  Which I did.

So. That happened boxingday.  It is now the middle of January,  and I think I am almost done with the bandage changes and visits to the community nurse.  I hope.

Either way – it meant another few weeks of sponge baths and washing my hair in the kitchen sink. Not the greatest thing ever. But I did shave my legs Sunday.  That was a celebration, right there.

Ive also had my brother stay with me to help me out with all the after surgery ‘fetch-n-carry’ so that’s been nice.

I have been able to play a few games too. Totally have lots of fodder for reviewing! Yay new content!

I hope that you guys got along okay without me. I know how important I am to everyone, so I’m glad you’re all okay. 😉